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 | 052808 | May 27, '08 7:39 PM
for everyone |
 Can you see those painted shut doors across the street through the blinds?
Woken up on a Sunday morning by a call from the sobs of my sis, "Lene, you should come now. Por por just went into coma."
Not being able to see her take her last breath because I was dilly dallying. Not being able to see her take her last breath because I went to the home in town. Not being able to see her take her last breath because I was afraid. Not being able to see her take her last breath because I was in denial. Not being able to see her take her last breath because I was overly concern about my current state.
The days has passed and so has she.
I'll think of you whenever.........
I'm in or around Chulia Street
I walk down the alley leading to the second house on the left
I walk up those creaking steps of stairs
I see a bottle of dark colored ointment
I see a lady wrapped around in her sarong
Those SGM prayer beads with two fuzzy balls dangling on the end of both sides
and the frangrance of scented incense
A sparkly pearl is crushed into powder
The grayish marble table with black crack lines
The almost silver chang with a rubber band across the lid you give us for soup or thong sui to tapau home
A half boiled egg with salt and pepper for breakfast
A simple home cook nyonya meal with three dishes and a bowl of soup is served
I hear the crunching sound of banana chips
An apple is given to me
A packet of Equal is used
The visual of people struggling to live through WW2
Someone switches to local channels, TV1, TV2 and TV3
The word Por por is said............
A little here and there in college.
Not exactly how I want my alphabets to be but close enough.
Seeing is NOT believing. Daring yourself to be in the situation and experience it is what we all should do. Nothing beats a pounding heart at a rate of 198.7 km/h. So what if you are risking your life for it? Hellllllooooooo we should all live a little. Go to any possible extreme lengths because it is the only way to find out how far you can go. Do a 360 then pause for 1/6 of a minute.
A friend asked her, "Why aren't you talking to Brett much?" And she said, " Yea, I think I don't. I don't know why though. It's not like I'm reluctant to randomly blurt out whatever I have in mind whenever I'm around Brett. It just doesn't feel right anymore. We used to talk and talk and talk for hours about nonsense but now....... or maybe I'm just talking to all of you more that's why I'm talking to Brett less comparatively." The friend paused for a moment and said, "Anyway I shouldn't be asking."
I suppose this bewilderment is a disbelief.
|  | Looking at the state through my viewing glass with mixed emotions and stupefaction. |
I've been doing it this way
After the past few pays
I should start saving for rainy days
I don't want to lose my say
I can't drive straight
I can't think straight
I oughta stop this with a date
Before it's too late
These circles in my head
Make it seem like there will be a lead
Five years down this state
Will there be a mate?
 Giiiirrrrrllllll......... supertighthugs
I'm glad we had the bonding session =)
| 030408 | Mar 6, '08 7:10 PM
for everyone |
 By the beachI preach
to reach
You walk
You run
You stumble
for the journey of the seven continents
You swim
You sail
You drown
and somehow you manage to navigate through the five oceans
Holding up a treasure map you search high and low, East and West
because 'X' marks the spot?
Stop, look and listen.........
You might have gone too far
It could be right under your nose all these while
Life has too many second chances
However some comes with a twist to it
But we fail to seize them
Open your mind
Free your heart
Take a step back
and breathe like the first milisecond you brokethrough your mother's womb.
~Thank You Dr. ZYX~
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Happy Birthday Daddy!!!!
We agree to disagree........
*Brb I'll edit this entry when I come home*
It happened today fullstop I fell on the ground comma sideways semicolon as though I was attempting to fly sideways like Wonder Woman full stop Cuts and bruises were all I had but this is nothing compared to the emotional trauma open bracket though it wasn apostrophe t as traumatic as the first time close bracket fullstop As I was recollecting my thoughts trying to figure out what happened within split second comma profanities came straight out like it was reflects fullstop I got up and caught a glimpse of a windbreaker in red and blue unfortunately I couldn apostrophe t identify more because my lenses were on a day off fullstop Was I suppose to scream by then question mark But whatever the fuck for question mark Very few Malaysians are good samaritans fullstop Wait exclamation mark This one guy from the Engineering Department helped me looked after my car for I was feeling extremely paranoid but at the same time I had to do something fullstop So I walked to class frantically and pulled Mark out of the class to tell him about it comma I was still in shock but I was able to speak in full sentences without cursing by then I was practically hyperventilating so we did some breathing exercise fullstop Ugh exclamation mark I so hate busybodies slash bitches fullstop There is a reason why I pulled Mark out and talked to him in private comma have some respect fullstop The class had to go on fullstop Mike followed me to my car instead fullstop We got back to where my car was and I thanked that guy profusely fullstop I saw ruffy parked behind my car and I started screaming profanities at him telling him what happened paused made a call to Mum and had to repeat the entire story fullstop After the call I was unconsciously saying comma open inverted commas I apostrophe m ok comma I apostrophe m ok comma I apostrophe m ok full stop Don apostrophe t I look ok question mark close inverted commas Who am I kidding question mark I had cold sweat and I was fidgeting fullstop By the time Michael came by it was already the fifth time I apostrophe ve repeated myself fullstop Mum arrived and made sure I was ok then she made some calls to cancel my cards fullstop Waited and waited and waited dot dot dot dot
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Took the extra car keys and drove the car to the college apostrophe s foyer fullstop The one and only thing I had in mind now was to get my caffeine fix or else I would have been shaking and cold sweat would be running down my forehead fullstop Talked to some of them for a while in the cafeteria and repeated myself for a gazilionth time fullstop It was all good because I was actually joking and speaking like my normal self again fullstop Then we walked to class and act as though nothing happened but all eyes were on me full stop They seem concerned equal close bracket By now I was a hundred percent a hyphen okay fullstop Sat down at the very back of the class because I needed to be alone fullstop But then my group was up next to present fullstop Did my part as a group then when back to my seat fullstop
I have not lodge a report yet I'm still waiting and waiting and waiting for my Mum to come home. I need my sleeeeeeeeppppp aaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!
I am ready to write my own book.......
Listen when it speaks
Observe the shut beaks
Vaguely stacked on three peaks
Every single barrel leaks
Burn in hell you crooks
Flesh and bones hanging from hooks
I will stare and look
Till you are fully cooked
Limitation does no just
Satisfaction is a must
I might not know you as a person but the characters you played blew me away. Your looks wasn't exactly a perfect ten but the 10 Things I Hate About You was the beginning of all things wonderful (as far as I can remember). Then came The Patriot, you played a role opposite one of Hollywood's rudest man. From your humble beginnings in A Knight's Tale you proved a point that destiny is in our own hands, yes we can change our stars. You didn't just stop right there; then came a smaller role with bigger names like Halle Berry and Billy Bob Thornton. Hmmmm ooh lala men in uniform totally turns me on though you were only a junior prison guard in Monster's Ball.The Four Feathers, The Order, The Brothers Grimm- I shall watch it sometime next week.Then the ultimate bold role you took on, of all places you did it in the Mountains (Brokeback Mountain) and caused so much controversy among homophobic idiots. Why can't people be open to homosexuality? Come on it's the 21st century already!!!! Alas, you did something typical, something what most people would have predicted; Mr. Casanova. *Clap clap clap* I would so hate to be those girls. What a wise manipulator! Ugh! Drooolllssssss......Did you complete The Dark Knight before you went back to God?Heathcliff Andrew Ledger
not your typical mate
1979 ~ 2008
Term of the day: NO DICK-NI-TY
Definition: Men who portray themselves as materialistic to the extent of willingness to live out of a woman's pocket.
Do you like cakes? Well I used to. In fact I liked them so much til I even did a home-made cake for a friend's birthday party. (Wow so many birthdays everywhere ahhhhhhh!!!) Actually it was a special cake because it was not meant for consumption, but rather for err amusement and guess what? Ironically I got to literally taste my own cake because I got caked right in the face cos I was being "too loud" ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! Wtf wtf wtf!!! And now I smell like last year's porridge which just got taken out of the fridge.
And to make things even "better", that stupid fucktard was around the place like the whole time! I wish he would just fuck off and leave me at ease. Thankgod he didn't ruin my night although his fucking retard-aura was almost choking me. Ugh! Whatever!
Speaking of birthdays.........Happy 21st Birthday J-E-A-N-N-I-E!!! Mwahhh mwahhhh let's go out before I don't get to see you again!
I saw her. She seems healthy. The glow on her cheeks and the flesh that filled up her now sagged skin. Up and about doing her usual chores. As I was walking in she stood up straight holding a bunch of freshly harvested carrots. She was surprised to see me. "Ah Lene! Come here, come here let me have a look at you." I ran towards her and gave her a tight hug. I didn't want to let her go for fear that she might disappear into thin air.
We sat down on the couch in the living room. I looked around. Nothing has changed it looks exactly the same before I left 3 years back. She served me tea, red dates with dried Longan chinese tea. I took a sip, placed the cup down and held her wrinkled hands. She brushed me off and hit the replay button telling me stories during the WW2. How she and her sisters had to leave school. This isn't exactly the first time I'm hearing this story but I don't mind. I don't want to say goodbye. I want to keep hearing these stories.
I wonder how she will look like when I see her tomorrow.
.......older
Wahahahahahahaaaaa!!!
Happy Birthday to my Ms Anal
ooopppsss sorry I mean to my dearest beloved one and only sister
AUDREY TANG MEI VERN
 (this was taken exactly two years back in 2006)You have always been the one that inspired me to make the most of out any experience. Be it in school or just arguing with Dad haha. Having a super achiever sister ain't easy because unconsciously I felt as though I had to be better than you but the truth is I just need to be myself. Hhhmmm I remember the times where I used to copy exactly whatever you did just to piss you off. Writing just like you. Having the same haircut just like you. Dressing just like you. Those were the days =)Haha now, you like my sense of style don't you? You are welcome to get these tips from me =) I'll be more than flattered to share.Living with you in the US also meant a lot to me. You taught me how to be responsible for my actions and the small talks we have occasionally made me realized you've been through so much to get this far. You will always be my pillar of support.Super tight hugs. I miss you. Please get married soon and start giving me red packets. Knowing you as a modern woman you can just give me $$$ to spend minus the red packets.
P/S: Please make kids not pugs. Preferably girls =)
Note to self: Remember to text her just in case she doesn't drop by here. Oh remind Dad and Mum too especially Dad, today is the CORRECT day not 10th December. Gosh! My Dad actually wished my sister a month ago thinking it was her bday like d-uh their birthdays are both in January. How can he be so absent minded?
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Angelene!!!!
I sooo wanna get out of here and fly off to Australia larrrhhh!!!
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hey actually until now only i notice in your blog you wished me for my birthday..haha
thanks Piggy..haha...
it's been a long time we haven't meet up.
hey, drop by Auto city and we'll go for a drink and catch up k
miss you loads..
xoxo
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I didn't say WoW.. I said ..wow.. lololololol
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i was staring at my background picture and then i started imagining things
if only aaawwwww |
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wormy wrote on May 19, '07 yeah.. what are you awwwing at? :) |
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hops hops hops to aussie!
becareful of kangaroos |
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wormy wrote on May 14, '07 i agree mommy don't nia. haijo |
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VE you MUMMY!!!!!
